Tis the season for New Year’s Resolutions. Everyone’s already talking about them on Facebook and Twitter, but I haven’t written any yet – so I’m posting past year’s resolutions.
On January 1st, 2010 I wrote:
I promise you, 2010 that this year I will age. I will mark my 26th birthday in August. And I will mature. I will become old enough to crawl up into my attic and search for the giant badger that I am sure has taken permenant residence there. I will also invest in more expensive face cream to fight off the tinge of wrinkles and worry-lines as I continue through my MID-TWENTIES. I will also stop buying “kid” cereals like Cinnamon Toast Crunch and Honey Nut Cheerios. And I will learn how to watch horror and action movies without closing my eyes or leaving the room or having nightmares.
I promise you, 2010 that this year I will be more responsible. I will not drive my car until the gas light comes on and then cry when I can’t find my wallet and I have to pay for $2.67 in gas with the change in my ash tray. I will write down appointments and remember them, rather than reschedule all of them because I double book myself all of the time. I will start balancing my checkbook by hand rather than trusting online banking with my whole heart. I will make real lists before I go to the super market.
I promise you, 2010 that this year I will learn. I’ll take at least one class. I will continue my education. I will learn how to make cheesecake. I will learn how to use an electric drill and other tools besides a hammer and a screwdriver. I will learn how to style my hair. I will learn and practice yoga. I will learn how to change a flourescent light bulb. I will learn about life, love and politics. I will learn about the world surrounding my existence.
I promise you, 2010 that this year I will embrace happiness. I will laugh until my stomach hurts. I will seek friendship. I will take more pictures. I will dance without shame, drink as responsibly as needed and eat without hating myself for every calorie.
I promise you, 2010 that this year I will discover. I will discover my favorite New Haven coffee shop. I will discover new ways and paths to get there. I will discover new friends and lovers and I will discover new sides to myself.
I promise you, 2010 that this year I will lose. I will lose another 10 pounds or more and I will lose my keys. I will lose at least one earring and I will feel like I’ve lost my mind. I will lose arguments. I will lose at board games. I will lose my way and I will find a new way back.
I promise you, 2010 that this year I will see. I will see beautiful sunsets and rises. I will see the seasons as they change. I will see with my heart. I will see from a new perspective. I will see the humanity in others. I will see the suffering and sorrow where before I averted my eyes. I will see if I can keep that promise.
I promise you, 2010 that this year I will live. I will live with passion. I will live through pain and heart break. I will live with dissapointment. I will live despite all odds. I will do more than merely survive or exist. I will live actively. I will live with hope and strength. I will live in the moment and I won’t count down the days until my life really starts anymore.
I promise you, 2010 that this year will not end as it is starting. I have 365 days to change my life, I will not stay stagnant, nor shall I come full circle. I will pursue greatness. I will find my way. And I promise that everything will be different next year, well except for those things that always stay the same.
I actually made pretty good on those resolutions in 2010 (with the exception of the horror movies and academic pursuits and cheesecake/power drill thing).
When 2011 rolled around, I wasn’t quite as ambitious – I simply resolved to drink more water and take vitamins every day. Those were actually some great resolutions for me – more water and vitamins made me feel great!
Now, 2012 is on its way – and I have some epic changes coming up in my life. Resolutions this year are going to need to be something special. I haven’t written them yet – but I’m working on them……and my Christmas cards….sorry I haven’t sent those out yet….